Effin' Pizzed

I'm listening to my "angry grrrl" playlist on Myspace. I think my music playlists are the only reason I still log in to Mahspace. I can't get the video to go BELOW my words. --_--

Anyway, my mom and I got into mad moods about me dying her hair. So I went to see my friend Shmarah because I just found out she's been really depressed for a long time. It felt great to catch up about her and talk to her about myself. Then I gathered the courage to confront Shmitch about him ignoring me for several months, despite our supposed relationship. I'd like to think that he was terrified to see me when he came to the door. Hahahahahaha!! >:D

I got right to the point. I got the answers that I needed. I told him that I felt that I deserved attention and he said he agreed. Then I reminded him that "I live right over there" if he ever wanted to talk again. Seriously, his next door neighbor shares a fence with our backyard.

I'm upset that he didn't bother talking to me at all for so long and that I had to go so far as to ambush him at home. Tsk tsk.

I think I need to go do some therapy exercises or something.

Can I Rant? Why, Yes, I Can.

Don't anyone get their panties in a bunch. This isn't one of those lame rants about how everything sucks and how awful my life is.
I started writing my newest blog entry on loose-leaf notebook paper in my English class this morning but I am feeling far to tired to fetch it from my bag. I'll start over.
I was very frustrated this morning sitting next to/behind some very annoying classmates. They run on idiotically about how much the Twilight series sucks and they like Harry Potter but it's so fake and after our quiz Jock Face stated that it's so much easier to skim the chapters of our book for the answers than it is to actually read the material we're assigned and that he hates his life so much!!! They make me want to run screaming through the halls.
At the beginning of class while we were supposed to be doing a journal assignment the teacher called me out into the hall(doorway as it were). She confronted me about not seeing anything turned in from me when she was grading our papers. I leveled with her that was gonna learn as much as I could in this semester and then try 990(a lower level English course) next time. She understood and encouraged me to still turn in work so that I could get feedback and make progress. She told me I couldn't pass the class without doing all of the work and I let her know that I accepted that.
That conversation was uncomfortable, but I think necessary.

On to better things.
I played "We Thank Thee, Oh God, For A Prophet" for my institute class today and did pretty well!! And after class the regular piano player complimented me :)
It made me feel really good.

I downloaded Insidious last night and invited my buddy Steve to watch it with me. It's not my fault that I love him. It's supposed to be a Horror movie, calling for muchos cuddling.
My love life is becoming super complicated. :( I'm unhappy about that.

I'm also a little frustrated now that I can't find anything "Harry Potter" to wear to the movie on Friday. Whaaaatever.

OH I JUST REMEMBERED!! Plans have been made for Kenzie and Jackie to come stay for a month!! We bought their Greyhound tickets today. JACKIE JACKIE JACKIE JACKIE JACKIE JACKIE JACKIE!! I'm excited to see her again.

Lie to Me(In Your Eyes) [imported from Myspace]

I see it in your eyes
The deceit and misery
I know that you're not well in your mind

Lie to me, lie to me
I expect it like the mail
There's not an honest bone
in your body

I won't listen
I won't take it
I deserve better than this
I won't listen
I won't take it
I deserve the truth

You know I don't believe you
You can't help yourself anymore
You see it in my eyes, I don't believe you
You can't hurt me anymore

Lie to me, lie to me
With ill intentions
Keep me in the dark
Like I won't understand

Truth is
I'm smarter than
You lead me to believe
I deserve
A better man
One that will not lie to me

I won't listen
I won't take it
I deserve better than this
I won't listen
I won't take it
I deserve the truth from you

You're actin'
So paranoid
Like I might be catchin on
So the truth is
You suck at telling lies

(Lie to me)
I won't listen
(Lie to me)
I won't take it
I deserve better than this
(I deserve a better man)
(Truth is)
I won't listen
(I'm smarter than)
I won't take it
(I lead you to believe)
(I deserve the truth...) *fade out, repeating*