Afraid of Love [imported from Myspace]

yay, its not in the life category today...
anyway, i was just thinking about my sitchy-ation.
i'm going on a date with peter on friday...but i'm also getting butterflies for another guy who i have a lot in common with and who i've known for longer...but this second guy isn't totally in love with me...he's just plain awesome with being my friend.
so i'm afraid to fall in love...i hate to see any person get heartbroken...so i don't want to only love one man, i want to love a few! i'm so...AAAHHH, just frustrated and confused. i admit, i'm very impatient to find my life partner... i want to just get married and not worry about the finding part anymore. i want God to spell it out for me in ketchup or something. tell me who i'll marry and where i can find him and when! make it easier on me!
but alas, i wouldn't be any fun to watch or listen to if my life was easy!