I got up around 1pm today and Anthony was already gone to work.
Kimberly was asleep on the couch and Ryan was on the other couch watching something on t.v. I went back into the kitchen and chopped up a banana and sprinkled it with sugar for breakfast. Also had some Doritos.
I just watched t.v. with Ryan until I felt like getting my Wheels & Cheese for lunch. I ate every single noodle which is probably a first for me. I topped it off with the last two Twinkies.
While watching t.v. I finished another letter to Dustin which will get sent tomorrow morning. During that time that I was writing it he called me and we got to talk to for almost 3 minutes at best. He says that his mom might come out for graduation along with his brother Craig.
I guess I'll have to talk to everyone and see what we're going to do.
It's not that I don't like Myrna and Craig, it's just that I don't want to be stuck with them from Orem to Fort Benning and for the whole time we're there plus going home.
I talked to Karlee briefly about it and she doesn't seem fond of the idea either. I wrote in my letter to Dustin that I would talk to everyone and figure something out. By the time I get home and have internet access again I'll have exactly 3 weeks to get everything planned.
After tonight I'll have almost 3 full days left here.
Earlier I was saying that I'm afraid to go home but now I am eager. Somehow I feel like I'm wearing out my welcome, ya know?
Eric says that the upstairs at home is looking very clean(finally) but the downstairs is a disaster! Yikes. The more stress I have at home the more I wish I could get an apartment a.s.a.p. But I'm making myself wait until Dustin gets home because he definitely should have a say in where we live. It's gonna be a rough 8 weeks.
Something I've been thinking about is those birth control pills. Like whether I should start taking them whenever I can so that Dustin doesn't have to deal with any side effects or wait until he can help me choose one, which also is another way of proving my fidelity for him. If I start before he comes home then he might think that I'm doing something I shouldn't be.
Also, Dustin swears he sterile. Like the only way that I could possibly get pregnant is by getting worked over by another man. :/
That won't happen.
I'm kindof glad that we can have sex whenever we want and not worry about other forms of protection but there would be something so sexy about him being able to get me pregnant.
My mom told me to keep in touch while out here but she hasn't called even once! On Wednesday morning I need to call and see who is picking me up from the airport.
Well, it should be easy for me to be asleep by 1am today. I've got a stomach ache right now. I guess I've been eating too well. And I'm dreadfully tired.
When I married Dustin I didn't even consider the cons of being an Army wife. I figured I'm not really making a huge sacrifice; that it's Dustin doing this great thing and not me. I was always kindof confused when people told me how good it is that I'm doing this and I didn't understand until after he left how huge of a sacrifice I really had to make.
Okay, I'll go to bed at 1:30am... I'm watching a show on G4 called Wired For Sex. Each episode highlights advances in sexuality. It's all I can (innocently) do to settle down my sexual desires. Dustin will take care of me when he gets home. =]
Goodnight for now.
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