Freaking Out

My boyfriend is estranged. We haven't spoken in a long time and it's not even because either of us are mad. He's a busy fellow and I accept that.

A few minutes ago I tried to type his name in the search bar on facebook and his name didn't drop down. It was weird but what really bothered me was when I went into an event that we're both going to be attending and next to his name in the "Attending" list appeared a button labeled "Add as friend". That's when I really started to freak out. So I sent him a message, reading "Did you unfriend me? 0.o". And that's it.

Dustin is totally over me and engaged to a girl that I actually kindof approve of. My boyfriend doesn't bother to talk to me and goes so far as to unfriend me online instead of breaking up with me. I'm becoming greatly upset.

I'm supposed to be using a diary card every day to keep track of feelings, urges, etc and skills that I'm practicing to cope with stuff but I'm totally not in the habit and haven't filled anything in since Monday. I suck. I'm gonna get in trouble with my DBT group.

I need a hug.