I Can't Be Successful

I was feeling proactive a couple minutes ago, browsing job openings through Utah.gov when I found a listing for a "Teacher Assistant/Preschool Aide", detailed as follows:

Teacher Assistant / Preschool Aide is needed for a Lehi educational institute. 1 position available @ 6 hours per day; $8.37 an hour; beginning December 10, 2012, Non-contract, No benefits. Provides assistance to teachers and administrators in the daily operation of the schools. Performs assigned tasks such as monitoring student assignments, data entry, grading papers, reviewing homework, filing, copying, sorting, answering phones, and other assignments. Works one-on-one or with groups of students. Substitutes for teachers and assists in maintaining order in the classrooms. Maintains a reserve of prepared material to be able to take over in an emergency. May record student activity like attendance, sick student processing and other office assignments. Qualification: Must have high school diploma or equivalent. The school requests that this individual have the ability to communicate effectively with students, parents, faculty and staff, have the ability to get along well with others, have good organizational skills, and be able to work under stressful situations. Word processing skills, computer skills, telephone skills, filing experience preferred. Must be able to substitute on a regular basis.

I thought that sounded great! Then I got hung up on the fact that my oral health is quite off-putting to others, which is a big reason nobody hires me to work directly with people.
I had a plan. I had x-rays done at a great clinic in Provo and after 3 surgeries(one for extractions, one for bottom root canals and crowns, and another for top root canals and crowns) I would get to have partial dentures made. I would finally have my pretty smile! That was in August right before I quit working at Teleperformance. I had to cancel the first surgery and let them know that I had left my job and didn't know when I'd have money for the procedures.
If I go through Vocational Rehabilitation to have the dental work done, the most I can hope for are extractions and possibly root canals and crowns non-sedated, no replacement teeth. I'm too depressed to even ask for the help. I wouldn't even want to get involved in something that I couldn't afford transportation for. I don't get my student loan or bus pass until January.
Everything will be better then. I'll have a new laptop for academic and leisurely pursuits, money to buy groceries and gas for myself and to help my parents a little.
I have a follow-up appointment with my case worker at Wasatch Mental Health's Wellness Recovery Clinic to work on my Workforce Services case to get Medicaid and food assistance.
On Friday I have an appointment with my intern therapist, Joan. My main homework from last time was to work on diaphragmatic breathing exercises. I did good for a few days after the last session but have since forgotten. I will double-check my notes from two weeks ago to see if there's anything else I can do to look good when I see her again.
Next Monday my mom and I get to pick up more food from Community Action's food bank. On November 5th(our second time there) the worker who authorizes families to receive assistance said we could only come once a month for the next three months(Nov, Dec, Jan) and not sure what she said about after that!

Last night the president(Emma C.) and first counselor(Elayna B.) in the Relief Society Presidency of my Young Single Adult ward came to check on me since I haven't been seen in about a month. Our ward raised $16,000 at an auction they ran to benefit families in the Timpview Stake for Christmas. Apparently tonight and possibly the next couple Mondays we'll be shopping and putting together packages of gifts for families in need. I know it sounds petty, but I don't think I'll be able to bear that sort of thing; shopping for Christmas gifts and not getting anything in return. Maybe blessings, but my distaste for my YSA ward could get me in more trouble than any blessings would get me out of. My faith is staggering.

Sorry for the sourness all the time.
On the upside, Jackie is moving back to Lehi as I type! She is 2 1/2 years old and has been gone for nearly one year, taken away by Kenzie and her dad. For the majority of this time she has been living in Maine with Kenzie and her grandmother. We all got to Skype with her ONCE when she was mostly distracted by her pizza.
They left Maine yesterday afternoon and stayed the night in Albany, NY and plan to stay in Toledo, OH tonight.
Kenzie is gonna let us watch Jackie at our place while she and the grandma get settled.
And on that note I bid you ado.